brain vomit

I’m always inspired by my friend Kim to delve deeper, feel more, think harder, write truer….the truth is, today (and any day, actually) I really don’t want to do that. Because I’m lazy. And I’m tired. And I wish I had either brought breakfast or had enough cash on me to get some breakfast because now I’m crabby and unsatisfied with my whole lineup of food (or lack thereof) for the rest of the day and that’s no way to face 9am.

I know I don’t blog anymore. I hate that. I got so caught up in “the blogging world” that I lost sight of why I even started to blog in the first place and then going back to my roots just seemed like so much WORK and frankly, I do enough work. It is easier just to link up and trampoline of other bloggers ideas and throw out some honest love and shoutouts from time to time.

This blog is about me. And about Bennett. It’s not about how many followers I can get or what the drama is with Google Reader or sponsorship or feeling like the outcast who has to sit by herself in the corner of the lunch room eating a stinky plate of cabbage and onions or something. I never intended to feel like that on my own blog, but I do sometimes. And that doesn’t feel good. So I just don’t blog. And then I read Kim, and she makes me WANT to be authentic, and put blinders on, and write what I feel even if I don’t have a perfectly edited and PicMonkey’d photo to add to it.

Such angst. Blog angst. Have you ever heard of anything so dumb?

Tuesday Thoughts…

I’m having problems with my nose. Can I talk about boogers for a second? It’s my blog, I can talk about whatever I want….I don’t know if I need a humidifier or what will solve this but I am making more boogers lately than ever before. And they are the kind that stick to the side of my nose and HURT. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest.

I want a Polar FT4 HRM and a new pair of Asics but I don’t want to exercise. Dumb.

If I am still this fat on my birthday this year, I will jump off the 59^th street bridge.

I finally started a savings account to take Benny on a Disney cruise for his 5^th birthday. This is seriously bringing me more joy than I’ve felt in a long time.

Went to see P!NK at the Izod Center Saturday….it absolutely blew my mind. She is amazing….seriously, if you have the chance, it’s a must see show. I am basically in love with her.

Aaaand my brain just quit on me. guess it’s time to go…..

But first...since I apparently just cannot allow myself to post without a picture, here is my freakishly adorable kid. eating a PB&J. I could swallow him whole.

(yes, it's been PicMonkey'd. Just a little though. I can't stop.)

um. sorry i suck?

I know this hasn’t been a very exciting week so far on this here little blog of mine and I feel really lame about that because I just sponsored my very first blog, Gumdrops & Gloss and I’m also working with Tiffany on a brand, spankin’ new blog design and feel like I’ve got so much going on and coming up and then meanwhile, I come over here and it’s like zzzzzzzzzzzz………

But it won’t be like this forevah, my people. As you may or may not know, one of my favorite things in life is lists…grocery lists, Christmas lists, wish lists, to do lists...but my favorite kind of list of all is The List Of things To Look Forward To…(also, you have to know that ending sentences with a preposition is one of my biggest pet peeves, but saying “The List Of Things To Which One Looks Forward” just sounds way too weird, so I’m just going to sit here and twitch…). That said, I’m a gonna make a list for YOU all, of things to look forward to on this here blog…

• Do you like lipgloss? Do you like to smell yummy? I’m cooking up a giveaway! I’m collecting goodies as we speak. I want to make it fun, sparkly and cohesive and I think 100 followers will be a great reason, so stay tuned for that in (hopefully) the very near future…
• New blog design, coming in August. I am SUPER excited about working with Tiffany, I am in love with the palette I chose and I am just so ready to finally feel polished and happy and like this little space of mine represents ME….and you, cuz you hang out with me here, and do you know how happy that makes me?
• A post on Benny’s first kiss, which just about landed me in the ER. Lock down your ovaries ladies, this one is a killer…
• Aaaand….certainly lots of crabby bitching about my upcoming birthday…but I am trying to remain positive like Erin and keep tings in perspective over here, so who knows. (Seriously, read Erin's post. it is awesome.)

In the mean time….I leave you with this….because it’s hot out, Coolatas are good, and my kid is cute.

xo