Tuesday, March 26, 2013

brain vomit

I’m always inspired by my friend Kim to delve deeper, feel more, think harder, write truer….the truth is, today (and any day, actually) I really don’t want to do that. Because I’m lazy. And I’m tired. And I wish I had either brought breakfast or had enough cash on me to get some breakfast because now I’m crabby and unsatisfied with my whole lineup of food (or lack thereof) for the rest of the day and that’s no way to face 9am.

I know I don’t blog anymore. I hate that. I got so caught up in “the blogging world” that I lost sight of why I even started to blog in the first place and then going back to my roots just seemed like so much WORK and frankly, I do enough work. It is easier just to link up and trampoline of other bloggers ideas and throw out some honest love and shoutouts from time to time.
This blog is about me. And about Bennett. It’s not about how many followers I can get or what the drama is with Google Reader or sponsorship or feeling like the outcast who has to sit by herself in the corner of the lunch room eating a stinky plate of cabbage and onions or something. I never intended to feel like that on my own blog, but I do sometimes. And that doesn’t feel good. So I just don’t blog. And then I read Kim, and she makes me WANT to be authentic, and put blinders on, and write what I feel even if I don’t have a perfectly edited and PicMonkey’d photo to add to it.

Such angst. Blog angst. Have you ever heard of anything so dumb?

Tuesday Thoughts…

I’m having problems with my nose. Can I talk about boogers for a second? It’s my blog, I can talk about whatever I want….I don’t know if I need a humidifier or what will solve this but I am making more boogers lately than ever before. And they are the kind that stick to the side of my nose and HURT. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest.

I want a Polar FT4 HRM and a new pair of Asics but I don’t want to exercise. Dumb.

If I am still this fat on my birthday this year, I will jump off the 59th street bridge.

I finally started a savings account to take Benny on a Disney cruise for his 5th birthday. This is seriously bringing me more joy than I’ve felt in a long time.

Went to see P!NK at the Izod Center Saturday….it absolutely blew my mind. She is amazing….seriously, if you have the chance, it’s a must see show. I am basically in love with her.

Aaaand my brain just quit on me. guess it’s time to go…..

But first...since I apparently just cannot allow myself to post without a picture, here is my freakishly adorable kid. eating a PB&J. I could swallow him whole.


(yes, it's been PicMonkey'd. Just a little though. I can't stop.)

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4 comments:

Kim said...

I love this post. And I'm sorry that I wrote nothing inspirational today and totally just bitched about Starbucks. *sigh*

I love your blog and whenever you find time to write. Seriously. If you need a break, take it. Write when you're just totally overwrought with emotions. That's what I do, and then hit publish before I even think about it. And then I upset people, or myself, but hey. It happens.

:)

Amber said...

I am on the same page with you about bogging b. The booger sitch is unfortunate, have you tried saline spray? P!nk is amazeballs and Benny Bear is delish. I heart you

insertwittytitleheremomstired said...

I could just eat up Benny...and that sandwich.
I've been getting the same booger thing, as well as Trenton especially early in the morning. In fact, B and I were just discussing that maybe we needed to change the filter on our furnace to help combat our sinus issues.
Tons of followers are overrated ;) Stay true to yourself and what makes you happy.

insertwittytitleheremomstired said...

I could just eat up Benny...and that sandwich.
I've been getting the same booger thing, as well as Trenton especially early in the morning. In fact, B and I were just discussing that maybe we needed to change the filter on our furnace to help combat our sinus issues.
Tons of followers are overrated ;) Stay true to yourself and what makes you happy.