Tuesday, May 15, 2012

a break....

I was hoping to bounce back over here from my weekend hiatus all full of puppies and rainbows and good cheer…or give it the old college try anyway…and I still want to, you know? cuz being bummed out all the time is no fun. It just feels like whenever I work my ass off to pull myself back together emotionally, I get smacked with another setback. Some good things have happened to me lately, and I count my blessings but it seems like one step forward, two steps back these days more than I ever remember…..

I was looking forward to things like taking Benny to Sesame Place this summer…I was looking forward to that more than I have looked forward to ANYTHING in a really, really long time.

Anyway, our renter put an offer in on a house, which she thinks got accepted. Basically, this means that, until we find a suitable tenant to replace her, we have to swallow the entire cost of that mortgage on top of the loss we already take on it every month even when we do get rental income….without going into details, suffice it to say that’s really a lot of money. Like, just short of my entire salary, and, well, I don’t know what we’re going to do. Pollyanna would tell me it won’t last forever, but right now, it’s more than I can take, for however long it lasts. I just heard the news and already the weight is so heavy on me that I can barely breathe.

I’m thankful. I’m thankful that my baby is healthy. That’s all that really matters.

Also, if anyone knows any arsenists-for-hire, I will pay them my bottom dollar to burn down the apartment.

Just kidding. (not kidding at all, actually.)

So, I need to take a break for awhile. I am putting out too much negativity and nobody wants to hear it. I need to breathe, in a room, by myself, and draw up a plan. I need to think. I won’t be gone forever…. 



noreenmarie said...

Oh Rach. So sorry. :( Is a short sale an option? I know it's not a good one, but just to get rid of it at this point, you know? xoxo

Emily said...

What a shitty situation, Rach :(
I tried to float a mortgage payment and a rent payment for awhile and it sank me financially. Eventually, I just stopped paying the mortgage and let them foreclose. In hindsight, I wish I would have done it much sooner. But then again, I was very upside down on the place.

You might be in a completely different situation in terms of equity...but if not, I'm happy to talk through other options (I became an unintentional expert on this crap!)

Skye said...

Blogging is a luxury. Go ahead and take care of your real life and real world stuff- we'll all still be here. I took a few breaks over the past year & 1/2 - and I will tell you it helped so much to not have to think about "What can I post next?!?"
Enjoy and good luck!

Anonymous said...

Have you contemplated selling your body? You could make top dollar.
Ben's pretty cute and entertaining. I don't see why you haven't tried to profit off of that already!
In all seriousness, I'm sorry you're still dealing with the stupid Co-op. I really hope you can just get rid of it soon, be it short sale, foreclosure, or legitimate buyers.
I'll sit here patiently awaiting your return.

Amber said...

That sucks, girl. I am sorry.