omg. the 40 days of bday posts fairy came through! AND IT'S NOT EVEN AUGUST!

holy crap jeez moley moses y'all!!!!!!!! ("y'all" she says. wth?) lookit what happened!!! for some reason, even though i have been a miserable bear to live with recently, the hubs still loves me...i don't know...but he does. ok well, last friday (i think....and i know, that was dayyys ago, give me a break here...) i got hooked. UP!

first of all, they just opened a sprinkles cupcakes right around the corner from the hubs' office in the city, so just as a goof, during the day, i emailed him a print screen of the daily cupcake menu with the "key lime" flavor circled, perez hilton style. there might also have been a big, obnoxious arrow pointing to it just in case...can't really remember...also, this might have been thursday, it's all a sugar induced blur.....regardless, you know he showed up with a cutie little sprinkles cupcake bag that he protected all the way home through the crazy new york city subways, penn station at rush hour and a long island commuter train....that little beauty looked like this...

except obviously that's not a picture of MINE because MINE was scarfed down too fast to photograph...a whirlwind of crumbs and happiness....

moving on to friday (because i really do think the cupcake was thursday now that i think about it...) he comes home from work like a kid in candy store, all a-twitter over whatever he's got up his sleeve. he runs downstairs, runs back upstairs, runs into the bedroom to change and then tells me to lay ben down on the changing table because he has something to give me....i start to protest because ben is a bit of an acrobat these days and i really don't like putting him down on the changing table, but the hubs insists. then, he hands me a post it:

underpants. i know. can you stand it?

so that is precisely what i do.........where i find this:

1. don't make fun of my underpants.

2. "U.P.", in case you couldn't figure it out, means "underpants". but of course you knew that.  anyway, we're ridiculous like that.

3. i don't know why he wrote "dad's u.p. drawer" instead of "MY u.p. drawer", which i clearly would have known meant HIS u.p. drawer. "dad's u.p. drawer " makes it sound like we have the same dad and he's living with us and he wants me to go rooting through his boxers. gross.

(he probably didn't get an "A" in penmanship, but he definitely gets an "A" for effort!)

and then...............

so i do and would you look at this?!??

i don't even know what to say. i don't deserve either one of them. they are too good to me....either that or they were just really, reeeeeeeeally sick of me whining about it.....

40 days of birthday ideas...what day are we up to anyway?

i want this. i want it really, really bad. i didn't think i wanted it the first few times i looked at it cuz i thought it would make me look like magda from 'there's something about mary' with the super metallic gold and everything, and maybe i am still trying to be that tan, carfree beach angel*  i'll never be but regardless, i want this pallette and gosh darmit, i am getting it. for myself. yes i am. pretty soon, too. maybe saturday? cuz they are all the rage and they keep selling out you know? so i need to hurry....and maybe i should stop at cheesecake factory for a piece of banana cream cheesecake to go too while i am over there....my birthday always makes me want banana cream cheesecake. i love the cheesecake factory....avocado eggrolls, they sing to my heart...but i digress....

it comes with just about everything you need to do every look imaginable and i know it is ludicrous that the hubs works for probably the biggest cosmetics company on the planet of earth and gets discounts on all of it and i am straying to a brand that his company doesn't own (read: no discount) but look at it, would ya? i mean just LOOK at it.

ooooooooooooooh i love it!

this wasn't the post i had lined up for today either...the one i was writing was awesome but then i backspaced and deleted a picture by mistake and the picture is really integral to the (super spectacular) story so that post will just have to wait till tomorrow till i can get back home and re-upload it. stupid backspace....

but ooooooooooooh look at all the sparkly colors!

* speaking of 'beach angels'...could you die over this commercial? it is my favorite.

check-a check-a check it out!!!

um. how super cute is this???? i am dying over it.  i had grace from gracely designs redo my whole little corner of the interwebs and i am beside myself with how wonderful i think it is.....

right?? omg.

i'm feeling much better....thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the hugs you sent and the happy words....no time to post a full update but i have some goodies lined up, plus like 4 days of birthday ideas to catch up on! be ready!!!!!

xoxo

just when you were getting all amped up for 33 more days of birthday posts....

i'm going MIA for a little.

yes, i know. just maybe a week or so. i'm planning some changes here on the blog and also, either the IBD has really set in or i don't know what, but i'm not in a good place, and really, in order to write posts that satisfy me, i need to be in a certain zone. i'm not there. i'm really, really far from there. and rather than whine all over the blog about how shitty i feel and how i want to jump off the roof, i am just going to take a little vacation....when i return, everything will be new and pretty.


here's a picture of ben eating peas to hold you over...

see you in a few.

40 days of birthday ideas, day 6

converse chucks...

in cloud blue...

or rose...

lemon peel....

pool party...

light grey...

 

coral reef! golden sun! blue!!!

all from delia's

40 days of birthday ideas, day 5

new sheets.

i have been wanting a whole new bedding ensemble for probably, oh, the last 7 years. my mom did this to me. she was a sheet snob and never settled for less than the fluffiest, most scrumptious bedding. falling into her perfectly fluffed and puffed, voluminious feather bed was like landing on a 700 thread count cloud....and she had a linen closet cram packed with sheet sets and duvet covers. i always thought it was normal to stand in front of a closet and ask yourself "what sheets to i feel like having on the bed this week?" instead of just "how long do i run the dryer?". i don't know when having lovely sheets fell so low on my list of priorities. NOT having a few sets of nice sheets definitely contributes to my depression...it's deeper than that, but sheets (or lack thereof) is certainly a trigger. part of the problem is the hubs who refuses to sleep under the same duvet as i do, insisting on sleeping on TOP of his half of it, covered in his ratty old, stained, polyester batting filled, scratchy disaster of a walmart bed-in-a-bag comforter. this means one half of my duvet is pinned under him all night so i'm basically sleeping under a down straight jacket and also, his half gets smashed. flat feathers are not heavenly feathers.

i guess i'll never have my bed the way it used to be because the hubs will forever insist on smashing my comforter, flattening my feathers...i guess i just gave up. but i don't want to have given up! i want so much for my bed to be the sanctuary it should be...i want a few sets of glorious, high thread count sheets and a stack of whimsical duvet covers and shams to choose from every week when it's time to change the sheets...

here are a few i found that i love:

Marimekko Puutarha Mist from Crate & Barrel

watercolor stripe by pottery barn

woodland organic by pottery barn

just some ideas....sweet dreams!!

6 months

my sweet little boy...how did you get to be 6 months old? when did this happen? i am positive that just 5 minutes ago you were laying on my chest in the OR, still warm from being inside me, wrapped in a dinosaur blanket with a little pink & blue hat on your head, pinching my nose. at that moment, my heart was so full of love for you it was unfathomable that i could ever love you more, and yet here we are, 6 and a half months later, and i love you infinitely more. every day, your personality shines a little more, you get more independant and more opinionated, funnier and more loveable. you are the perfect, perfect little boy for me and i am so in love with you. i am so torn between the excitement of seeing who you will become tomorrow and the heartbreak of watching you grow. i am so proud of you, of your independant little spirit and your hysterical sense of humor. you are so smart and so trusting and such a joy to be around. i am the luckiest. the luckiest mom in the universe...sweet baby...thank you for picking me. i am forever thankful and forever humbled. you have gifted my heart with a capacity for love that i never even fathomed before i met you. you are the reason i breathe.

i waited for his 6 month well visit to make this post so i could include his hurculean stats, he's actually 6 and a half months now, which is a pretty big deal if you ask him :) he got his immunizations without so much as a flinch (although he is a little cranky this morning in the aftermath) and is hitting all of his milestones perfectly. i know i keep saying it, but i am so, so proud of him.

weight: 21 lb. 15.5 oz. (so 22 lb., duh, but then he peed after the doctor weighed him...all over the exam table AND the doctor so....maybe less? that's my boy!)

height: 29 1/4''

(over the 95th% for both)

teeth: 2 on the bottom, both came in at the exact same time at exactly 6 months

sleeping: awesome! STTN for the first time the night he turned 6 months and hasn't looked back since! he is a total rock star!

eating: 4 bottles a day, 7-8oz each plus fruit and cereal for breakfast and veggies and yogurt for dinner.

loves: his rainforest exersaucer, sophie the giraffe, his bear named harry, banana yogurt, splashing in the pool, mommy & daddy and his aden & anias muslin blankets...

hates: the texture of pureed fresh peas...and that's pretty much it! he is such a lover!

skills: rolling over like crazy, sitting up, hugging mommy & daddy, grabbing for his spoon, practicing the sign for "milk", laughing hysterically at the sign for "all gone", singing loudly...really, really loudly. especially at 6:00 in the morning.

answers to: monkey, monkerson, monker, monker-de-jibs, de-jibs, ben vereen, benjamin netanyahu, ben rothlesburger, benny-bone-jones,  kavasha.

love. you are so handsome, so smart, so funny, so gentle, so charismatic, so loving. everything i hoped you and imagned you would be. i am so proud and so lucky i get to be your mama.